I’m Sad But I Must Be Happy

Honestly, I feel really really sad and devastated today because my Tito passed away this morning. My entire family are grieving for the loss of our beloved familymember. Four months have passed since my Lola died and this time….. it’s my Tito. Tito Aaron is the eldest brother of my mom, my godfather, and my favorite Tito among all my Auncle’s. He died due to heart-attack, my cousin-in-law told me that my Tito was very strong and cheerful this morning, he’s doing his usual routine pa nga daw. Nagtanim pa daw sa garden nya at nagbunot ng mga damo then he suddenly collapsed. Natakbo sa hospital but it was too late, the doctor can’t revive him anymore. In just one snap, I loss another loved one. I feel like another part of me has gone.

I’m very close to my Tito because he stand as our father to me and my siblings when my parents got separated. He’s one of the funniest yet super kulit man I know. He took care of us like his own children. We love him so much. And that’s why I’m so devastated when my mom told me about the bad news. Nakakapanghina. Sobra.

To tell you the truth, hindi pako nakaka move on from the death of Mommy(my lola) and now I feel like I’m falling apart. I just wanna cry to my heart content. I feel so empty, Oh God give me the strength that I need. I just want to break down and cry. But I know the Lord has purpose, so Lord please take control.

Since I’m sharing my sadness to all of you, I would like to take this opportunity to share this wonderful song to you. Whenever I feel lonely and sad I just listen to this song over and over and I feel alright again.

Here I am waiting, abide in me, I pray
Here I am longing for You
Hide me in Your love, bring me to my knees
May I know Jesus more and more

Come live in me all my life, take over
Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle’s wings
Come live in me all my life, take over
Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle’s wings

Here I am waiting, abide in me, I pray
Here I am longing for You
Hide me in Your love, bring me to my knees
May I know Jesus more and more

Come live in me all my life, take over
Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle’s wings
Come live in me all my life, take over
Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle’s wings

Come live in me all my life, take over
Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle’s wings
I will rise on eagle’s wings, I will rise on eagle’s wings
I will rise on eagle’s wings, I will rise on eagle’s wings

I will rise on eagle’s wings,I will rise on eagle’s wings
On eagle’s wings

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I know goodbye is not the right word to say, I’ve said this before when my Lola died and I will say it again, till we meet again Tito Aaron. We will miss each and every part of you. I know you’re in a happy place now and I’m very happy for you too. You know I do, although I feel like I’m dying inside. I know we will overcome all these trials by God’s grace and in God’s perfect time. I leave everything to you oh Lord.

Please pray for me and my entire family.

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Till We Meet Again

I’ve been crying my lungs out since last week due to the loss of my beloved lola (grandma). The past few days was really tough for me and my family. It WAS hard, really really hard but I have to accept the fact that she’s really gone now. My heart was saddened by her loss but I couldn’t wish her back, especially when I saw her sleeping and free from pain, I know she’s in good hands now with Jesus. Last Wednesday was her burial and I can’t cry hard enough. The word goodbye is the easiest word to say but the hardest thing to do. I grew up with my Lola, so can you feel how hard it is for me to let go? IT IS REALLY HARD!

But yeah, I guess the word goodbye is not the right thing to say, goodnight it is. I know in God’s time we will meet again. I miss you a lot, we miss you here. But don’t worry we’ll be fine… sooner or later. I know you didn’t deserve what you went through, you deserve to take a rest. God’s garden is the perfect place for you. Thanks for the wonderful memories, and thank you for sharing your 85 years with us. It is too much. I know you and Daddy are very happy now. And I couldn’t be any happier than that. Till we meet again, Mommy and Daddy.

And I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you to all our friends and relatives who shared their sympathy and generosity during this difficult time. On behalf of my family, I would like to share our most sincere thanks for the time, kindness, encouragement, and for the contribution you sent in memory of my late grandmother, Roqueza Cadiz. Thank you for honoring her memory with your meaningful tribute. We are deeply grateful to all of you. And allow me to offer our most sincere gratitude and love. Thank you all for your loving support. God bless you all.

P.S. And thank you to all my readers who give their time visiting this site even for my lack of posts. Thank you for understanding me. Don’t worry I’ll be back hopefully by next week.