It’s Mommy’s Birthday Today!

We were supposed to celebrate her 86th birthday today however she’s celebrating it now with Jesus.  For the new comers, my Lola died not so long ago(read here), she passed away last February. Everything is still fresh in my memory, we were just celebrating her 85th birthday last year(read here) and now…….. she’s gone. I know people come and go but the memories stay in our hearts forever.

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Love, Mommy

My Dearest Cyler,

As I write this post, I’m just listening to your never-ending nursery and rnb song. Yes, you love singing RNB too! You are such a composer and great singer, Cyler you love creating your own lyrics and rhythm. You really have a heart in music, maybe you got that from Mommy or maybe because you love listening to mozart when you were still in my tummy. Oh and I remember those days when it’s just us together and all you did was to eat, poop, and sleep. How I miss those days so badly. I can’t believe that you are toddler already and so tall.

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I wish we can always be like this forever

I wish I could be with you 24/7. You know that it really breaks my heart every time I go to work and leave you at home but I must for the sake of your future. I know someday when you grow up and you have your own family you will understand why Mommy and Daddy have to do those things for you. But thank you for always waiting for us even if your sleepy or snoozing already. I can feel that you love us so much because you can’t sleep at night without Mommy or Daddy beside you. Thank you for the love, sweetheart! You’re my inspiration and you are indeed my greatest stress reliever.

Your giggle is music to my ears. Your laugh and your smile takes all my worries and fears away. Thank you for the sheer joy that you brings into my life. I can’t imagine life without you and your Daddy, Cyler. And thanks for constantly reminding me how truly blessed I am for having you in my life. Always remember that my love for you is like nothing else in the world, anak. I love you, Cyler so much!

Love,
Mommy

What is Real Happiness?

For me, it’s when I make funny faces in front of my toddler just to make him laugh and I don’t really care how will I look like. Baliw na kung baliw, be it. But that’s real happiness for me and my toddler.

Just like the saying goes, money can’t buy you happiness.

How about you, what’s your definition of real happiness? 🙂

Till We Meet Again

I’ve been crying my lungs out since last week due to the loss of my beloved lola (grandma). The past few days was really tough for me and my family. It WAS hard, really really hard but I have to accept the fact that she’s really gone now. My heart was saddened by her loss but I couldn’t wish her back, especially when I saw her sleeping and free from pain, I know she’s in good hands now with Jesus. Last Wednesday was her burial and I can’t cry hard enough. The word goodbye is the easiest word to say but the hardest thing to do. I grew up with my Lola, so can you feel how hard it is for me to let go? IT IS REALLY HARD!

But yeah, I guess the word goodbye is not the right thing to say, goodnight it is. I know in God’s time we will meet again. I miss you a lot, we miss you here. But don’t worry we’ll be fine… sooner or later. I know you didn’t deserve what you went through, you deserve to take a rest. God’s garden is the perfect place for you. Thanks for the wonderful memories, and thank you for sharing your 85 years with us. It is too much. I know you and Daddy are very happy now. And I couldn’t be any happier than that. Till we meet again, Mommy and Daddy.

And I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you to all our friends and relatives who shared their sympathy and generosity during this difficult time. On behalf of my family, I would like to share our most sincere thanks for the time, kindness, encouragement, and for the contribution you sent in memory of my late grandmother, Roqueza Cadiz. Thank you for honoring her memory with your meaningful tribute. We are deeply grateful to all of you. And allow me to offer our most sincere gratitude and love. Thank you all for your loving support. God bless you all.

P.S. And thank you to all my readers who give their time visiting this site even for my lack of posts. Thank you for understanding me. Don’t worry I’ll be back hopefully by next week.

Farewell

Farewell to the lady who taught me how to be strong and independent. Thank you for giving me a wonderful childhood experience and for taking good care of me and my siblings while our parents is not around. Thank you for nagging me to study hard, without you I wouldn’t have a better life now and brigther future. Thank you for all the wonferful, crazy, and sad memories you have shared with me. You will always be a part of me, no matter where you are right now. I love you so much, Mommy! You know I do, and I always will. It’s really hard to say goodbye, but I guess it’s time to say goodbye. I’m going to miss you so much. As I write this post I couldn’t stop myself from crying. It’s really hard to say goodbye, but I know I must and accept the fact that you’re totally gone. You may not be physically here, but you will always remain in the deepest part of my heart. For me, you’re still the best Lola in the whole wide universe. I owe my life to you. I love you so much, Mommy. And I’m missing you a lot.

Thank you for the gift of love, now you’re sharing it up above. May you rest in peace with our Lord God, Jesus Christ.

Yab You!

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Last night when we got home Cyler sat on my tummy and said….

Yab You (I love you!)!

Of course, I said I love you tooo, baby! Who am I to refuse those magical words from my toddler?! I sure am glad and thrilled because God gave me the sweetest child in the world!

He hugged me tightly and I hugged him back!

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That was his “first” I love you to Mommy! Woo hoo! I wanted to do cartwheels when I heard those precious words to him! That’s the best word that I heard from him and he learned from me! I know for now he was just mimicking my words, but eventually he’ll come to understand what the words mean as he grow up.

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Cyler was 6 months old here! This picture was taken last New Year’s eve.

That’s a toddler’s love to his Mother. And a magical moment for me and every mommies out there. Now I understand how it feels when your child tells you I love you, it’s priceless and incomparable!

It makes me wanna sing “I’ve got joy like a river, I’ve got joy like a river in my heart! Hallelujah!” 🙂

How about you? When did your child first say “I love you”? 🙂

Love, Mommy

Finally, I’ve found the perfect book for me – Love, Mommy by Judith Siblin- Librach. This book is the most heartfelt book that I have read in a long time. I enjoyed every page so much that I could hardly put the book down. I can relate with the author, because we are on the same boat, we are both a child of divorce. This is why I have been so motivated to give my child the attention, close, happy, deeply safe and loving family I never had.

Author Judy Siblin-Librach are encouraging all of us to write a letter to our babies. She encourages mothers, fathers, grandparents, and other relatives and friends to join in and try to rebuild those early years for their children. It’s not important if you’re not good in writing, because there is only one person your children want to hear from: you, their mommy, or daddy and not some Shakesperian genius. Remember that love letters are always cherished.

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This is a book that helps parents restore their child’s memories for them.

Here’s my love letter for Cyler:

Dearest Cyler,
The day you we’re born was the happiest moment of my life. I can still remember the day when I was pregnant with you, you always moved your whole body as if you are dancing on my belly. That’s one of a kind experienced for me. Oh, I can still remember the day you we’re born, I cry so hard because I was so happy. I know every pain is worth it, because I knew that at the end of it all, I’d have the greatest thing on earth, which of course, was you. Cyler, you didn’t cry when you we’re born and you’re the most quiet baby in the nursery room. It is the moment I will cherish forever. I can’t believe that miracle is happening to me. For me, you are heavent sent from above, you are miracle. You totally change my life completely, and you made my life more meaningful. Cyler, I just wanna say thank you for teaching us how to love unconditionally. You don’t have to do anything but just be, you are perfect just the way you are. Mommy and Daddy will always be here for you and will do anything for you. May you grow in love and with God.

I love you more than you’ll ever know.

Much Love,
Mommy

And when I struggle intensely with putting all these wonderful feelings into words, one thing became clear: I wanted my son to know how I felt about him and this was a way to begin expressing that love.

Chronicling the precious memories of your child is priceless, because you are giving them back their memory that they otherwise wouldn’t have access to.

Hugs and Kisses

Today, I went at Booksale and was able to buy 5 books for Php340 only. I was able to buy Hugs and Kisses by Loupy/Tarlet for 65 bucks only,There’s a Wocket in my Pocket by Dr. Seuss for 70 bucks only, The Eye Book by Dr. Seuss for 65 bucks only, Mary & Baby Jesus by Zonderkidz for 60 bucks only, and since today is my birthday (yes, it’s my birthday) I bought a book for myself, I was able to buy Love, Mommy by Judy Siblin-Librach for 80 bucks only. Going to Booksale has become a habit to me (Kahit birthday ko I was able to drop by at the store pa rin, adik lang diba? Hehe) . I guess, it was a great birthday treat for myself. 🙂

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Here’s the books that I purchased today.

Anyhoo, I wanna share every pages of the book Hugs and Kisses to all of you cause I find it heart warming for a mother like me and I guess it’s one of my fave book now.

So, here it is..
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Hugs and Kisses by Christopher Loupy/Eve Tharlet

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Hugs want to know all about kisses. So he asks the farm animals.

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A duck’s kiss is a bit hard, but quite refreshing.

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A pig’s kiss is scratchy, but very tender.

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A horse’s kiss is damp and sticky, but so warm.

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A butterfly’s kiss tickles, but it’s simply wonderful.

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But a mother’s kiss is the best kiss of all! The end..

I guess, nothing beats a mother’s kiss. 🙂

Btw, I love the book that I bought for myself, the title of the book is Love, Mommy by Judy Siblin-Librach. It’s all about writing love letters to your baby. I will make a blog post about this book soon.

Generally, my birthday is complete not only because of the books but because my family is with me on my special day. Thank you Lord for this wonderful day! 🙂