I’m pretty sure you’ve all noticed that I seldom write a blog post these past few days and it’s because lately I’m not feeling well. Last week I’ve been diagnosed with UTI again. I used the word “again” because obviously it’s not the first time I had this. The last time I had it was when I was pregnant with Cyler and back in my college days.
Why? Because my son is terribly sick today. His colds started last Monday after a day or two there comes the cough and yesterday it was accompanied by fever too. He wasn’t able to sleep the entire night due to his cough and fever. And worst umiiyak na sya kaka-ubo which is very unusual to Cyler because he seldom cry when he’s sick. That only means he can’t tolerate the pain anymore. Poor little baby. Hay.
This photo was taken last night it was 12 in the midnight already and he’s still wide awake. We let him watched his favorite movie, Cars just to entertain him and make him feel better.
Nowadays, a working Mom is usual to all of us. Before, mothers are supposed to stay at home and are assigned to take good care of their family but now it’s so hard to do that because of the high cost of living. Both parents need to work in order for the family to survive, of course you want to give the best to your child. And you want to secure your family’s future, sino ba namang may ayaw, diba?! And so, here comes my dilemma as a working Mom. Normally I try to keep my home life to my professional life separate. My Mom used to go here in our house on weekdays to look after Cyler while Cj and I are working. So, that’s are basic set up. Unless my son get sick, our basic set up become a big ‘ol mess.
Last Sunday, Cyler gets a high temperature, a 38 degrees stupid high temperature plus a runny nose. It was his first time to have a fever, so we’re clueless why he had a fever then. And then I remember that he is teething again and three molars are peeking through his gums, that’s terrible for a baby. Three molars is no joke.
Cyler has a high tolerance in pain, he doesn’t cry even when he’s not feeling well but I can see how he struggle because he can’t eat and sleep well. And he started to become clingy and irritable. It was Monday and he was still sick, and so I immediately file an emergency leave. On those days, work has to be put on back burner. I texted Dra. Vienne to tell her about Cyler’s condition and I asked her what could be the best thing to do which she responded very quickly. She said that we should continue giving him Paracetamol (for pain and fever) and Disudrin (for colds) for 3 to 4 days. She also mentioned that if the fever subsides and colds clear up, I can discontinue the medicine earlier. And she told me that if the fever persist we should bring Cyler to her. I told her that Cyler is teething again and she said that it can be the cause of the fever. What I really love about Dra. Vienne is that she answers all my queries even thru text, we’re so lucky to have her as Cyler’s pedia. Having a helpful Mom and pedia is really a blessing.I went back to work on Tuesday since my mom was there to look after Cyler and my husband was there too. His sched is more flexy than mine cause he can work from home especially when times get rough for our son. I’m lucky enough to have a mom and husband who graciously step in when my job is too hectic to miss.
His fever subsided last Wednesday, thank God! So, we didn’t bring him to Dra’s clinic anymore. His cold was still there and he got cough also, but it’s not terrible unlike the first few days. And he is totally fine now. Thank you so much, Lord! I O U a bunch!
My company aren’t a monster who refuse to grant a day off or make me feel guilty about taking good care of my child. But there are days when I have a million things to do and I don’t have a choice but to go to work and leave my sick child at home. The guilt feeling was there, really, but I don’t have a choice because I have a deadline to meet. I feel the type of guilt that I would imagine comes with committing a crime. I want to stay at home and take good care of my little one but sometimes I really need to work. Hay. Project deadlines is sometimes a bitch especially when you want to file a leave but your deadline stopping you from doing it. So, that’s one of my biggest dilemma as a working Mom.
There are times when juggling your family life and professional life wasn’t easy especially on those days when you can’t leave your work. Every time that daily routine gets off-balanced, one side of the scale gets neglected and there’s nothing you can do about it. Sick days are just one of those work-life crossovers that muck up the waters for working mom. It’s a good thing that you always have a back-up system around you, like your Mom or your relatives who can look after your sick child especially when your job is too hectic to miss.
Our little boy Cyler is sick and has been down with stuffy nose for 6 days and cough for 2 days now. Last night, it was already accompanied by vomiting. I guess we need to see his pedia, unfortunately she’s on leave until May 13. We’ll just check for a new one for the mean time. Anyhoo, it really breaks my heart to see him suffering from those viruses.
When the baby is sick, Mommy get so paranoid and tremendously worried. A Moms job isn’t easy especially when the baby is sick. It is also one of the hardest thing for a new mom to go through and it is very hard to watch your baby feel bad. And it’s hard to decipher a sick baby coz they can’t say how they really feel. If I could only take all those pain away (sigh).
P.S. Get well soon Anak!